Change.

Change.

Change is what we fear because it may be something great [smiles] It may rise us to our potential and meet our needs. It may even fulfill our Destiny by allowing our Dreams to come True. It may give us that which we wake up longing for every morning. It may Create the life we want.

Change.

Such a wonderful destination of soul and spirit; fulfillment with no regret or guilt. An every day life lived in balance with the needs and wants of the being. To Exist without fear. The only time there can be no Change, is when we stagnate and fight the very change we constantly ask for. So why do we? Thats a great question. But does it have a great answer?

Somehow we believe that Change is hard and terrifying, even though the reason we want to change is because what we are in is hard and terrifying. Is comfortability such a insane stable place? Not at all.

Comfortability balances nothing, but hidance and isolation.

I know your potential. This light that can never be put out. Your appreciation of small seemingly unnoticable things that, when passed by you, are infused by you and enlightened further. Just like me, you find other peoples light, and in the background allow them to grow in this very light. We're like that busstop where everything gets fixed. New tires, clearings of the engine, oil change, and refinishisng of the shell and body. And when all is done and cleared, the individual humanize busses drive off closer to their goals, and we stay on the same shore, no more or less than the moment before they met us; no growth enhanced, no spiritual exchange, no connection.

Does it feel good? It does in that instance, but can be transformed into resentment should we help the same busses day in and day out without recognition of our souls work. We give from ourselves to further their path. Make it wider. Make it Clearer. There is an adoration and admiration for what we do, Love. We just have a hard time allowing us to feel it.

So why we keep people at an arms distance when we really want them close, is not so much for what they dont know about us but what we dont know about our selves. What is a perfect person? Hasn't the things changed with Time? Is Perfect the same now as it was before? Aren't we perfect being us?

Now, I am fairly great in many things, but the recognition of my own greatness is clouded by the guilt to allow myself to feel it. I was raised to believe I had to do something fabulous, to be rewarded. And if I don't do something fabulous, then each achievement becomes 'just a minor thing' - even saving lives at work comes under this category. Weird isn't it? I save someones life, but since I didn't do it without other people, or without medication, or without machines - it wasn't completely against the odds.. One day I saved 5 lives.. even that seemed too little.. Maybe I could have saved 10?

Minor event.. Not the thought of their lives. I value their lives so much I do anything to save them. BUT. My participation wasn't major. There is the ambition to overcome and do greater and better. I can always improve. Therefore I have a fear to stop and think my self great. Because the fear I have of being selfish and stop growing. It becomes a drive, surely.. not stressful, just a normal transition. 'I did good but can do better'.

Those moments I wonder if it is such a bad thing really. Is guilt bad if I know I do something bad to myself or others? Is it bad when I know I do less than I can? To me it would be bad if I dont stop what I dont want to do, and if I dont learn from one step to another. Otherwise guilt to me keeps me alert of my choices and words and actions or inactions. It keeps me alive and attentive; plus helps me participate in my own Life. It is a moral issue.

I Think the guilt that we sometimes experience however, is a groundless negative guilt, build upon past lacks of recognition. Save yourself from them by forcing your self to recognize responsibility of that guilt. Are you actually guilty? Then solve it. Is it your responsibility, then take it. In the instant it is taken, you will be cleansed of the heavy stones it is bringing. Once it is done, you're cleared.

If it is NOT your responsibility but you keep guilt because it is comfortable since you've always known it and taken it, then leave it behind. Allow it to show face. Find your self in it. Ward it off. Disconnect every action that creates this guilt. Unless this is done, you will never be cleared of it. No meditation can find its way around it. Meditation requires the Clear Sight to act upon it. Meditation hands you the possibility to do it on root level. You have every possibility to. You know the root and source of your guilt. Look at that face, and release yourself from it.

Fear is not a bad thing if it makes us think and save ourselves - you know that whole basic idea of running from danger? Now with time and evolution, the fear that before was a basic instinct, is now transformed into simple pathetic obstacles. Some run away from confrontations. Others run from responsibility.

You and me are running because we know ourselves too well. We don't meet our own standards. We are yet at the goals we have set up. To have high expectations of ourselves keeps us constantly moving, IF we dont stop and end up burying ourselves, like we have done. It doesnt matter what other people say or praise. We need our own recognition.

Look at the Night. What stands against the pitch black each night? The Moon.. a much smaller body than the whole solar system, but its brighter than anything else. If you envision the Light outside of you, you create your surroundings brighter but your immediate reality is still left in the dark because you envision it outside of you. If you envision the Light inside of you, you become the Moon in your own vastness. Which is a good thing [smiles] But the Moon cannot see its own Light. It sees only dark surrounding it.

Doesn't mean it's not there. It means it is there fully. It works its deeds and purpose. [smiles] It needs a Mirror to see its own Light. you and me need each other for the same purpose.

What is beyond Today? Is your Life only Today? My mom used to pray every day and she was very happy about the way she was praying. She felt good not asking for too much. She asked for roof over her head and food for the day. Not millions of dollars or a huge house or all the material things. She got what she prayed for. She had roof over her head (but the risk of losing it at each dawn). She had no food when she went to bed, and woke up with the worry if she would be able to get food that day.

"Roof over my head and food for the day"

If you only want to make it beyond Today, I want to congratulate you to it and hug you and Love you. You did it! You made it! But was it enough?

I never manifest the short 'be in the moment'. I manifest longer terms, and I am in each moment on my way to the longer term.

We always get what we ask for, many times rarely the way we want it. We do always get it the way we universally 'need' it, though. And few people KNOW what they ask for, or their vision doesnt match their prayer or words or deeds or meditation.

Link it all together. Envision what you KNOW is ahead of you, and create it in each moment. Dont envision only today. Envision forever, and recreate Forever in every moment. Forever requires alot of small steps. So put the goal further, and the steps towards it, smaller. A day to day basis. That way, your Goal is in sight, and each day a step towards it. [smiles]

A Right Question to ask; What are You afraid of?

My answer would be.. Your potential to not be afraid.

We are larger than this. You are larger than This.

That is your Birth Right, your Purpose, and your Gift.

Allow yourself to deserve NOT living in Fear. Allow yourself to be Loved because you know our Essence is only that. I need you to envision yourself regardless of people. Who and what you are and want to be.

Then just DO it.

It really is not tougher than that. The source of your fear IS known. You just dont want to allow that to be the source of it, because you think it has to be more complicated than that. But, Love.. its not worse than that. Its not more complicated. You have not changed before this moment because it has been too much nonsense, voices, and disturbances. Now.. all there is, is Change.

Flow with it, and make the decisions humbly. They require no logic thinking.

Whatever it is, you can't afford to NOT Change.

Skye

Indigo is my Normal

I grew up in places with history and souls. Walls contain tons of memories, and pathways have millions of steps walked before. I guess I'm just one of those who can note those intangible prints, and live with it without going crazy. However, I'm sure for some, my explanation of me would be considered crazy [smiles]

My whole Being is constant. I don't shut my senses off. I don't hide. I don't pretend. So every day is open, loving, true, honest; tough like treading through mud; it's sometimes painful, heavy and cornered with anxiety because some things are out of own control. Some things cannot be changed. While people now and again try to fool me, lie to me, test me; and I show, question, say and exceed the expectations.. All things combined, I'm sure, is scary for some thus leaving me on a long road with few and far in between that completely understand and that is not running away from..me..

Obviously I don't consider myself "normal". I don't always know exact things (because I'm not all-knowing :P) I 'know' close enough to question. That is not a 'normal' occurrence, I realize this, however for me it is a normal flow of everyday life. I wouldn't want it any other way. I rather carry stones that are larger and heavier, but I know them, than me free from carrying anything, and live in hypocrisy of my existence.

I have never even attempted to explain 'how' it occurs to me. Never, because it's .. different. People rarely listen enough to comprehend. Most times communications are self serving. They need my help. So I give, believing that one day, someone will give back. I give because I want to.

I know who people I connect to are talking to/emailing/commit to. I sense thoughts/motives, the other persons thoughts and intent, and I 'see' the end result.

I "hear" thoughts. It's not voices, and no I'm not mentally ill :P It's a combination of connection, energy, frequency, and vibration of thought patterns and sounds. Thoughts are just as valid as actions, even if people don't think so generally. But for me there is no difference. Intent is the 'judge & doer'. The intent sets the cause and effect. The intent of any thought/action also creates the consequence of the thought/action. Thus Intent is the important Essence in any communication (physical, spiritual, emotional).

The combo creates a vague sound that I guess could equal a voice. If concentrating on that sound, I sometimes know what someone types, as if they read it out loud. Other times I see it as a written letter before me. A rolling text screen. All that is based on my own well-being. If focused enough, no problem.

Warnings ring in one ear, information rings in the other. That helps me determine course of action. Warnings makes me aware that if the pattern continues this way, "this" will happen. Information is more a heads up; cannot be changed but I have a sense of the outcome and can somewhat prepare for it. Weird? I guess. But absolutely comfortable and safe.

I feel the intensity and intent as energy waves through me, and that in combination of what I said before ('hearing' and 'seeing') creates a picture. All senses are in as well. I taste the intent (sweet or bitter) physically in my mouth if the situation is intense enough.

So.. Thoughts, emotions, motives, next step. Surely that's scary for people to interact with. I understand that.. [sighs]

And outside of that, it's the normal small things. Say things as answers before people ask, call right when they are about to call me, fetch people in situations if that is on my path as if it was meant to happen. Right person in the right place at the right time.

I See, but far from every time I see, I Say. Most times it's kept until the person is "ready" by situation or choice.. other times its never said at all. That's what I carry.

For me it all became a choice. Not the power but the usage of it. I don't help people if I'm not ok (unless emergency) because of the risk to draw energy instead of giving energy. I don't tell people answers to their questions unless I'm Clear Sighted.. So if my vision is clouded (I'm sad, angry or stressed) the visions would easily be negative in energy and since we create reality, I don't want to create negative patterns or negative happenings for people.

My path has been interesting. I rarely ever speak of it.. Because it's different and if people can't handle my normal every day life me, then how to handle where I've been or what I know? I'm not special, I'm not weird. I'm just on a path and thats it. I'm me.

After years of interacting with secret groups, priesthoods, open practicing groups, own studies through spirituality, philosophies and religions; trips and travels across the planet to experience it all as well; I ended up being initiated into a large Druid Order in 1999, being the 3rd woman ever to be initiated into the priesthood. Then I realized something interesting.. [smiles]

It was all too limited.

I know secrecy is many times needed for things to not get out of hand. But I know more.. So what does THAT mean?

I left. I found the reason why I all the time felt limited even in said *unlimited* groups. I ended up finding the rituals to be limited. Why use middle hands? Why have gods who represent attributes one may not have but want to have - instead of finding means to learn and grow to HAVE those attributes (Strength, Courage, Love, Knowledge.. and all the things that gods and goddesses many times present).

To show devotion to something higher is one thing.

To show devotion on a daily basis that KEEPS you as a "smaller" being, is another thing.

'You can never reach divinity in yourself unless you have god/gods to pray/devote to!'

Excuse me? Of course I can. Watch me unfold :)


Epicurus once said: "It is folly for a man to pray to the gods for that which he has the power to obtain by himself."

And that's it.
That is EXACTLY it,
for me.

♥

Skye

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`*.¸.*´ Si vis amari, ama
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(¸.•´ (¸.•´ .•´ ¸¸.•¨¯`•..Quos amor verus tenuit, tenebit

4th Stage of Change

So lets continue twisting the thoughts and toss our Minds into the pool of… things..

The fourth level is based on Balance; Because if we are Aware, and through that Awareness are True to ourselves; and in that True Light, have the Strength to remain True – We are in Balance. It doesn’t mean that all is always in our favor, things will not always be happening the way we want them to. Because is that truly ‘balance’? Or let’s flip that upside down for a second..

The reason I say there is a balance is because on this level, ANY situation and ANY chance, ANY time is in our favor. Balance happens because we consciously and continously change to uphold, reach, and become. Balance in the sense that all is good, all is bad, all is something [in a form/sense/opinion] set, creates in itself an Imbalance. Balance can only, in that remark, happen in a flow. If it is going downhill, you balance it up; when it goes up, it is balanced down.
To reach a set Balance, always creates a set Imbalance.

Reaching Stage 4 in our understanding seems to mean that we look upon all as a Whole, we seek to help, no matter what. We seek to let others grow in their own Light.. We become Free, and let others have the same opportunity. We are Balanced enough in ourselves to understand the Worlds that surround us; to serve without the selfishness to control it and put one self in “higher” level and meaning than others. We share, and share, and share. We have a flow and we follow it, control it, breathe it; live it.

There are so many Gateways around us. Doors to open, others to close. Get in through one, out through another, like a Matrix corridor. These Gateways are like questions. How do we answer? Can we answer?
If we Are, in Truth, wouldn’t all that happens, be Right?
We created it, didn’t we?
We all Are mirrors to each other. We all go through the same things in this Chaos, however the face of it looks. And first and foremost; We Chose it. And in that Chaos where we tremble and fall, where we toss and turn; when we find ourselves dying – some say we are merely being born. The reason we are born in those places is because when we feel like we are dying, we make our first decisions. The most important ones at that. We don’t jump up and down like a yoyo, where we are sometimes REALLY happy and the next moment down on our knees. There is a Life or Death feel to our lives at that time. We SEE, or are forced to SEE.

We choose, then, honestly, and suddenly everything flows and fall into place. We have found and created a flow.

The reason we don’t want to be yoyo’s is not only because of the mere reason that it would surely be a roller coaster and give us headaches; but there will always also be someone that laughs with us, and always someone who catches us before we hit rock bottom, preventing us from growth.
Now, this is all very comfortable, and a loving feeling, but sometimes it gives us an excuse to not make choices. We can always then blame others for the creations in our lives even though the creation still is our own. But if we blame others, life sometimes gets easier on the outside, but more chaotic on the inside. Blame gives us the reason to always be taken care of by people.
In the end, we are just eating into our self-proclaimed victimization..

I believe that Chaos is important. I have to always remind myself of this; remember that only Shadows will point out the Light. Chaos and Serenity are bound together to the point where Chaos will force you to a state of Stillness, and you will be forced to Change.

We all create our own Environment/Reality as it seems, with or without the conscious of our Selves; Will, Need, Desire. With or without another person. We do still always Create with the Universal energy patterns/waves; With or without Clear Mind.
We always choose.

And the more we understand of our possibilities, abilities, qualities, opportunities, and then also our obstacles; the clearer we can be in our choices, the more aware we will be in our decisions. An the flow will be constant, not set, but constant.
The aspects in which we are creating can be of own choice, but also by other people’s choices, all for us to use/discover/experience and grow from.
I would say that I am seeking the aspects/faces in my Self because if *I* AM already, my Self needs to bring all the aspects together. If I am walking and creating with another, it is through my Self I seek the other. I can’t find my Self through another person, but I can find another person through my Self.

Read that last part again, if you need to.
If I am merely me, and creating with the energies around me, I will find the connection to the Universe in my Self – I am a part of it. As the Universe enwraps me with its stars and planets in my outer Reality, there is also a starry Universe in my Inner Most. Living energies of Creation and Destruction; ever flowing and ever growing. Sparkling, tingling stars, as well as Black holes. I wouldn’t say that anything Rules me; but more that I am Driven inside my Self to Learn. By choice.
But to be able to flow and grow, I need to be able to balance the ebbs and flows of my life.

Not be flooded, or flood.

The aspects one can use to find the Self through the Levels are these so called Co-Creators:
Truth, Respect, Humbleness, Compassion, Justice, Fairness, and Determination…

Or any other you may choose to define as co-creator for yourself. Remember though, that we end up in situations that sometimes never can be Balanced – or are never meant to be Balanced.
Or.. they may always be balanced, since a balance reached automatically turns into an imbalance.

Paradoxes are everywhere.
With a world that is in such an Imbalance, I’m forced to understand that what I am having as “co-creators” in my Reality, are also the aspects I am driven to become in Totality. To advance and use what I have stated as co-creators for myself [or tools..], as using the examples stated above, I then NEED to be truthful, show respect, be Humble, show Compassion, be Just and fair, and determined on that very journey. Without my defined personal ‘co-creators’ in my search for balance, I can never be consciously balanced. Not because it cannot happen without my consciousness, but I won’t be able to feel balanced, because I KNOW I haven’t become them.

I would say that being Driven towards the Higher, I would use the aspects/faces/qualities to create a Pattern in which my Life is weaved. This, in order to come to that Higher Goal of Self. There are certainly hinders in my Self, which stops me from coming to the Wisdom I have forgotten or seek. Hinders that Chaos will give clues of, and Serenity will give opportunities to overcome.
Serenity will be the clearness and calmness. The quietness.. The Stillness.. The Peace..
Serenity will happen so that we might See and Learn.

The calm before the storm; or the calm after a storm has blown over..?
Either way, there will be another storm following, and another calm.
Because without Clear Sight, how can you Trust what you See?

So Stage 1 show you a Need to Change..
Stage 2 becomes the Will to Change ..
Stage 3 brings the Strength to Change..
..and Stage 4 is the Awareness of Change. The objective past/present/future eyes that we need to wrap up any change; break any pattern; find balances/imbalances – Our Personal Flow.

To be conscious of these Stages in our lives, small things and big things can be dealt with the same way. Because big things and small things, are still only things, but sometimes we lose faith since big things always seem TOO big, and small things seem bigger than small.

Sapere aude
(Dare to be Wise)

Skye Cebhfhionn

© 2001 - 2010 Skye Cebhfhionn

3rd Stage of Change

To connect the levels so far, we started with the recognition of the Need to Change, which in level 2 became a Will to Change. The third level is based on Strength; Do we have the Strength and Courage TO Change, and to Be in that Change? Do we have the Strength and Courage to remain true to ourselves once we have the need and the will?

What I mean with this is that the Level 1 makes us realize, and gives us the choice to be aware or unaware. Every person comes to this crosswalk, and every person chooses. With whatever comes with them when that time strikes them, will determine the outcome of their choices. Looking back in time, we can see that the developement of our societies have made the people split in two. Either Ego is ruling the world, or the Ego-less. Even though these two main streams seem far too black and white, it has always been black and white. That is why this time and age gives us a world of Grey Children. The Grey Zone.

This helps to determine if what we have from our parents are of any use to what we have now recognized to be true, and sincere for ourselves. If not, it needs to be torn down.. But if anything can be used, it will be re-shaped, and re-manifested.

If you can see that we breed the future in every child, you may also be seeing what lights we put out, and what lights we lit.

Some believe we choose every 7th year, consciously or subconsciously, and looking back many people find major events happening in their lives around the ages of 7, 14, 21, 28, 35 and so on. Events that in one way or the other directs the traits in which they concieve and are ‘re-born’. Events that make them climb yet another step on the ladder. Whether that is your belief or not, be sure of the facts that we always have the ability to choose. Stop and choose whenever we recognize a change is needed, and can find a will to change. Thousands of times..

Now, the work is not done just because we realize that we need to change. It is a heavy operation, a nerv wrecking mission, a chaos not easy to name. But the awakening alone differ in the route of our lives. It changes, in itself, the way we percieve the world. But when seeing it, we stand before another choice. We can stand fallen to the devastating errors of mankind, the roots of ‘all evil’. We can be knocked out by the huge mistakes we have made, and feel helpless once looking at it with clear sight. And we start to wonder if there is ANYTHING we really CAN do to make a difference. Already here, many give up. There is no hope when no doors are open.

So we choose to be willing to change – which leads us to Level 2.. or we choose to remain ignorant and remain ‘not wanting to know’. It is much simpler for most people to shut their eyes. I can understand that, I can even respect it somehow. But for myself, I would never be able to do the same. When choosing the willingness to change, we are running down the path of Level 2. We realize that there is so much to be done, and so much to participate in. And first we believe we can change the top, not seeing that change needs to come from the foot of the mountain. The energy we are filled with when we see how we can go about is fantastic! So we use it to demonstrate, we use it to argue about human rights, we question authorities for the way things work, only to be knocked back down on our knees being too weak on our own. Energy is taken, hopelessness fills us up. It seems for some spare seconds, that we speak to deaf ears. And somehow we are. Because how can a voice of wisdom go through to anyone not having developed the ability TO hear in the first place? So how can we EVER change anything?

We become stronger, the adversity we meet inspire us to continue, while others give up. There is a reaction, therefore there must be a reason, a cause, we say. So we try to find that cause. On the path we start to meet people feeling the same as we do. And the Gatherings begin.
We start to realize that in order to change the world, we need to change ourselves. We can get help to pry open the Third Eye in level 1, and Level 2 makes us stand strong in our own beliefs. Level 3 question that belief system to make us aware of what our personal belief really is. Questions trim us to recognition of ourselves.

It can whisper in the back of our minds:

“Do we have the Strength and Courage to believe – to be “tested” – to be doubted – to be questioned?”

“Of course!” we whisper back because darkness isn’t that scary anymore.

“We’re ready!”

But ready for what?..

What is it that we are waiting for? Because we feel it in the air, the changes of energy, the higher frequences, connections to people.. Premonitions.. OBE’s, dreams.. Can it be defined? Truthfully? It isn’t a choice.. It needs to be. However long that takes, take it.. Definition is a necessity.
Meditations give us the opportunities to pry further on our own. All to answer this: Do we know what we want and where we want to go? Do we have the strength to do what we want, and go where we want to go? Do we have the courage to stand up for ourselves?

And it may seem simple, the answer that pops up in our minds, but is it really that simple? I found it was more complex in its simplicity, than anything. I know what I want and where I want to go, but HOW can I make that happen? How can I Become without sacrificing another? How far am I willing to go?

Seriously..

How far am I willing to go for this?

You see, everyone can visualize, but can you envision all the beauties, freedoms and joys of a truly fulfilled life, and decide how you will help perpetuate those gifts? It all depends how you define ‘a fulfilled life’.. And many people haven’t defined anything..

So, if what you are now involved in is NOT going to benefit the children, the future & future generations, are you willing, strong enough, and courageous enough, to define that loss of path, and change what you are doing? Create those selfless deeds that, althought selfless, STILL derives out of Self. If you’re not, I can understand. But the advise is this: …you better think one more time, hard and long..

Do you have the ability to define yourself, find yourself, follow and lead yourself, manifest yourself, create yourself, and in all that CHANGE the foot of the Mountain, the Consciousness of the World as you see it, because once found your Self – you have to let it go..

Because, when you see it, feel it, walk it, create it, believe it and paint it.. When you make your own moonlight painting of what IS, and defend it; then you have chosen to complete the Level 3 of your awareness ladder.

The Stage of Strength to Define and Become..

Be Proud of yourself for being Here!

Skye Cebhfhionn

© 2001 - 2010 Skye Cebhfhionn

2nd Stage of Change

When we, in Level 1, are triggered to see beyond the limitations, and find ways that aren’t taught by our parents, we see the Need to change. We may stand fallen as to HOW, but we are noticing the feel of ‘having to’. When becoming more aware, where there was a Need to Change, will now be a Will to Change. We always start with ourselves, which is quite interesting. We become aware of who we are, where we want to go, what we want to do.

We become Seeing, and others remain Blind, so we start to change. Some topics we listen to suddenly lose their value, and we see how ignorant and selfish people are, including the parts where we have been ignorant and selfish ourselves. We ask silently in ourselves if we have been the same; if they always been that, but we cannot really know for sure. It is like we hear it for the first time.

Arguments we before always engage ourselves in, now become a waste of time. We start to see where all our energy is going, and we select suddenly where to put it. Some things seem ‘useless’, but wordly things seem like a ‘have to’. Drama that has been attracted to our lives; intrigues of negative emotion and negative intent become something we shun away from. We get fed up.

We become more direct where we put our focus, because we know we can affect it. We Change for real for the first time, in Level 1. It is a somewhat fetus stage for the awakening human, and we change those things first, that our brain says we can change. It is when we come to the things that we believe we cannot change (by science or belief) that the FUN begins!

It is easy to follow a certain belief system until it is questioned and we suddenly don’t know why we are walking the paths we are walking, or why we say we believe in something. When we are questioned, we are given a chance to realize our own direction. Take every chance to understand every question. Then you will be engaged when you get questioned, and not offended. It is a gift to always be conscious. Don’t lose the curiosity to understand yourself. Being questioned, or being the one questioning, is a doorway to always be conscious. With the awareness of the conscious movements in ourselves, and the changes made during the experiences, we can easily understand the steps we take and the direction the path is going.

We will know why we weave a certain pattern, but the most important thing is the fact that if the steps are conscious, we live as we believe; walk our words and live our truths.

In Level 2, it is important to see to that the belief found and followed, is a belief that comes from inside, one that stems from your aware choice and conscious.

I read scripts, but didnt follow them. I followed others, until their path got lost. It suited me well, it felt and flowed right. I fooled myself to believe that someone else could show me the way, that someone else could make me “see the light” until I was so alone and lost, and suddenly found it IN myself. Then I headbutt my own path and wrote my own life story.

Level 1 showed me the door to my own power. To be able to use one’s own power, the door needs to be opened. To open the door, you need a key. Level 1 gives you the key of your true belief. Level 2 gives you the key when you have found your Will-power.

So.

If you have followed someone else that is more aware than you, you may have gotten the help in Level 1 to pry open your Third Eye. But to be able to stand straight on your own in Level 2, you need to understand what it is you’re seeing, and you need to be able to have the power to see it. The world for the ones who dare to be aware will become bigger and deeper, yet smaller and much simpler.

When we see and understand how we affect the world around us, we know how to use the magnetism we have. It is overwhelming when first realizing the personal power to change, but it needs to be a reaction that quickly turns to awareness and not more ‘impressiveness with Ego’. We have seen the results of our energy, it is there and noticible, and we have seen how we communicate with other means than words. We try to balance it, and when we can manage to balance it, we realize how the world works down to the Quantum physical level. Not in totality, but it all opens up to us. We see how small the particles really are physically – but how huge the particles power to create/destroy is.
How complex aren’t we as humans then?
How complex isn’t the interaction with another?

The power of our thoughts that we realize in Level 1, becomes a huge magical play before us on this level. We see patterns in our behavior, and the patterns in others. Mirrors are everywhere…
We can travel in time of our own lives, and realize that goals made then – how strange and weird they may have been – were made based on reasons. Choices are made according to our knowledge, and awareness.

Have you ever said: “I wish I knew then, what I know now..”

Well, dear one, You know now because of the choices you made then..

The Cosmos becomes bigger when we realize the macrocosmic starplay in our innermost. And the depth in ourselves becomes a wonderous soul-moving event when we can see the microcosmic pattern it in the sky.. When we realize the affect we have on others with the temper we have that day. How the actions are followed with the effects/results/consequences, we suddenly believe in our own value. We see the results of our behavior much clearer and much faster than before. The world becomes bigger, phantom like, when we realize how everything is connected. The world becomes smaller and simpler, because we make changes in our environment; stopping interactions we dont have to put up with; choose friends that are more like-minded; or we realize the respect to those who think differently.

Life becomes simpler in its outlook, because we realize that material possessions mean nothing. “Might be good to have” is not part of our vocabulary. The importance we had before of having a nice physically looking home, changes into the importance of having an emotionally/mentally practical home. We surround ourselves with that which will sustain us better in our growth. We focus on the greater collective good, rather than our own individual gain.

We understand that focusing on the Greater Good is the only way we can manage to change our environments. Individual gain is no longer the focus, however individual participation is. We understand that the change starts in us and with us personally, but the change for the Good of the Wholeness of humanity have to happen in totality. We imagine a world we want the children to live in and strive to honestly produce it, using visualization to help us manifest. We understand the power that is vested in all of us, how we affect things in our surroundings.

The violence we can see shining through a child in this world today, have us stand fallen. How can a child show such cruelty, with a conscious mind? Because it knows no difference. A child doesn’t do what it’s told, but instead what it sees. We must change our behavior to show children how things should be done. We must teach them compassion, not by words but by actions. We must show them love, not by words so much, but truthfully by heart. The children are, undoubtedly, our future. If you want to continue to breathe, you teach your children how to breathe. Not through you, but on their own. You can never keep them safe at all times, but you can make them be safe in themselves at all times. Open your OWN eyes for your children, and they will See..

There is a wind sweeping across our lives that has an agenda of its own (universal goal), and we have a map (our plan) and a sail (our mind). Using them both, we can use that wind to empower ourselves on our chosen course.

Finding flexibility in a situation, and work with what is there right then, we can use any moment to improve any matter. Therefore, we can also follow any wind that comes along, to use any breeze to take us closer to our goal. I believe we always have possibilities in any given situation – every time is the right time, but we go blind when the opportunities aren’t handed out the way we expected.

Knowing that we always can survive if we learn to see the patterns around and inside, we find Adaptability to become an extended bodypart. It needs to be.

We suddenly understand why things happen, and we feel our own power to Change. Knowing we can depend upon our own adaptability frees us to see opportunities that before was invisible. We hold the map that will change the world. The map to help others understand how to sail from chaos to order. Using it determines how we can serve this world, nature, and humanity creatively.

Nosce te ipsum
(Know Thyself)

Skye Cebhfhionn

© 2001 - 2010 Skye Cebhfhionn

1st Stage of Change

I started writing about the bigger personal Changes a long time ago, and saw it being brought forth in the Societies as a chain reaction, through my own but also other peoples own changes. First I wrote down a few sentences in order to remember. To me they made sense and were containing everything I knew and understood. The sentences were layered multiple times with experiences, emotions, and opinions. My values and morals gave the words nuances and depth, yet they passed over most peoples heads.

So I tried to explain them in order for others to understand what I meant, even though my original intent with writing them down was not for others understanding but my own confirmation and memory. I still failed to bring forth the clarity others needed.

This is yet another try to reach a level of common understanding. It is written to make people aware of their lives and individual choices. Maybe these stages can help?

Stage 1 is the place where we first realize that there are changes inside and outside of us that we have started to take form, pushing us to awareness. These changes are inevitable to our survival, both as individual people, but also as societies and cultures. It creates a mayhem of sorts to everything we were taught, and every paradigm we have believed without questioning starts hitting our faces. Through this chaotic swirl of new ideas, new experiences, and new personal understandings, we look at where our base is, and try every day to come closer to our own personal core of it.

As we fight to understand how we feel and how we think, things long forgotten come back. In other words, Past is catching us in the Moment, and serves us with people or situations we thought we had put closures to.

Obviously not, as they re-appear in our changing moments.

The moments we could reach easily before when we were in need of solitude or breath or break to rest our minds, can no longer be reached the same way. Our peace inside is no longer the same, and we get stressed out not finding the solid foundations we stood on before. The reason it is no longer solid is because it is no longer there. We have come to the realization that nothing actually is solid, ever. It is flowing. Not carved in stone.

So we focus on what is happening and try to take one piece at the time to understand it. It is mind blowing because suddenly we realize what we are thinking, and how we are thinking, and what we tell ourselves all the time. It is auto-responses to situations after taught behavior from childhood, or references that auto-respond because we have experiences from similar situations in our past.

It can also be auto-responses with opinions from others that we have yet to define for ourselves. Things that may not at all apply to the understanding we have had of ourselves. So we are awakening to a better understanding of who we are. We acknowledge what no longer serves us, and try to let it go. It seems to be people, memories, and things. Even habits, traditions, and feelings go along here. We come to a place in ourselves where we wish to create a minimum circle around us – only people that work with us, only things that make us feel good, only memories worth keeping.

The intent of doing so is to become independent, and some even self sufficient; to not lean upon others or the possessions we have built our lives around. Because if you lose all your possessions – who are you? If you lose your job, what are you?

To find out who and what we are, we have to let go of behaviors taught by our parents, and find our own measurements of values and morals. Not necessarily so that what you were taught is wrong, but how do you know it’s right, unless you pick it apart to observe it. Can you adopt opinions and perceptions without questioning, and stand strong in the conviction of that throughout trying times? Can you explain or define without having anything else to measure it to? Can you defend it in totality when you don’t know the totality?

Through picking it apart, we create a wholeness within ourselves. You may come back to the things you were taught because they seem the most right, the most valid to you – or you may find a completely different route to travel. Whatever you find to be closer to the truth for you will serve you as a foundation that you can apply to your life, your breath, your view, and your steps. We allow ourselves to become individuals with own thoughts, and own perceptions doing it this way.

Most times Stage 1 serves this for the first time in our lives. In that very same breath, it is also a journey to become whole with others as well.

Many have found a realization of where they’re headed, and know what to do to get there. We know, all people will not “wake up” to the same realizations or realities that we have. Even when we find ourselves striving to reach further, others choose to settle with what they have. In that we also realize, that we cannot help everybody at all, and some really don’t need help. We can’t wake people up, even though we would love to and have the best of intentions to do so.

People have to wake themselves up, sometimes with a helping hand, most times on their own. It is all a matter of strength, and there needs to be a constant reminder to ourselves of finding this strength.

It is not easy to understand that our life force, our consciousness, our equanimity, and our own value to the world are all the same thing. It is not easy either, to come to the understanding that the transformation in the world, the re-generation, will force us to climb the evolution ladder whether we feel ready or not.

All we can do in the moment is find the level of flexibility needed, and use adaptability to manifest it so that we, by choice, Survive or not. Grow or not. Wake up, or not.

To be able to do this, we have to take hold of our own lives and with that stand to the responsibility of our lives. So it all somehow leaves me with the questions whether we can throw off any cultural conditioning that keeps us from owning our original pure nature, or not?

Can we step into the full light of truth as we know it so that our core motives are revealed? Can we be THAT honest with ourselves and others?

The notes that follow in italic are my original thoughts on Stage 1 and I will try to explain it afterwards, or at least make a more full sentence of my thoughts. This is my guidance in what is called “The First Stage of Change”. There are 4 as far as I know.

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“The first level, to me, is based on Awareness: We know the goals because we have Awoken to some parts of a Truth that we seek. We wake up, and by this, we are split from others who cannot understand the realizations, the revelations, and the Visions that drive us. We become “different” and we become “weird” in the eyes of those who we feel are Blind. Outsiders looking in. We strive to Become what we want to Be, to learn more.

From the huge mass of mankind, this level will split the mass in two.. Aware and Unaware..”

And I believe this. It is not at all dependent upon religion, money, race, or sex. This dichotomy happens when we realize how alive we are and how much power we have to change, to create, to empower. The realization comes with responsibilities as well that most times are forgotten or denied. When something triggers us to see beyond the limitations we have upon ourselves and our abilities in life, it trigger us to realize our awake moments, our choices; what we say and think and let other people taste of ourselves. It is overwhelming when we see this the first time, because suddenly we see that what we hold as important may not matter to us at all, and what we have done throughout the years, may have been a somewhat waste of time.

The path we have followed or the opinions we have expressed may have been completely hypocritical to what we really believe or feel or strive for.

We may even be resenting what we think, and refuse to accept that what we just thought is actually our own thought. Well, how can you know unless you find out? Examine yourself. Listen to your own words. Be in the moment of your speech, and see whether what you express is you or not you.

Create yourself.

This embraces us to start interacting with our lives in a different way. We find ways to go about that is not taught by our parents. Inside, there is a feeling or intuition expanding out over the world we experience, and at the same time increasing our personal power that our perception contains more of the bigger picture than before.

Where we first felt a Frustration of Being, we come to see the Need to Change. When becoming more aware of our selves and what we wish in life – and when we have come to terms with how we interact – where there was a Need to Change, there is now a Will to Change.

We become aware of whom we are, where we want to go, what we want to do. We see fragments of something else unexplainable that may be discouraging at first, although it feels right from the start still. We can’t explain it, but we feel it. We can’t show others, but we see it still in ourselves.

We become ‘seeing’, and others remain ‘blind’. We ‘change’, others get stuck. We ‘grow’, others remain ‘unchanged’.

We start to Walk, Others are left behind.

Tthat is how it has to be. The steps can never be taken unaware. When being unaware of your choices, you won’t hold a need and will to change. You settle for what you have and feel content [or not] in it. But as long as it is the way you know it, and you are blind or unaware of your power to change it, you will not change.

Stage 1 can end up having us feel like outsiders until we understand that the emptiness is on one hand a selfish sadness, because we don’t get the energy of others to muster up our “own”. When that frustration is acknowledged and processed, you can leave it behind. When done so, you will probably love the time alone because you know you need the time to contemplate. You need to use your own inner resources. You need time and energy to view the world through clean perception, and also need it as well to grasp what you have started to awake to. It is mind blowing indeed, and to grasp it seems way too hard because it is all so seemingly vast.

You will get a hang of it. Don’t say you can’t if you haven’t tried. Don’t give up if it isn’t served on a silver plate. Don’t whine if it isn’t instant. You chose to progress. Follow it through.

I believe in you.

”People feel attracted to aware people. “There is something about her/him, but I can’t put my finger on it”.. They may not like the fact that we don’t follow the herd, they may even shake their heads and not understand. But they still need us, want us, and are dependent upon “that something” that aware people possess.

Since everything we achieve is a reflection of our character and personality, this level helps us form the foundation of our expanding worth, attracting more, until we accumulate all the fulfillment we could ever dream of. When we learn to use our magnetism to help achieve our purest goals, we are divided from the mass to climb the ladder…”

We learn to use our magnetism. In other words, we learn to put the energies in the right place. It is not the learning to use others for our own benefit [wink]. It is the realization of how to NOT suck others dry when we run low on fuel, or how to shine but not shine and leak when we are high on energy. It is to realize what effect our actions have on ourselves and our environment, and what reactions they are getting from others or the environment. We can suddenly see how small amounts of misplaced energy can destroy years of building up.

In observing our actions or inactions, we become mindful of our responses, and we find ways to increase our energy levels inside. We understand the patterns around us and the habits we have built up on the way. We also learn to understand the energy exchange that is constantly happening in every interaction with another person. We see that energy used in anger will be wasted; spewed in all directions, Leaving us empty and through that obviously viscously frustrated.

Focused energy in any emotion, will increase the awareness of the reaction and the projection the emotion has on its surroundings. We see that love given will come back just as sweet. Filling and refilling.

We have all wasted energy, and become frustrated because of it. Experiencing all of these different things makes us see how we live our lives. Knowing that, makes us able to always refill our resources. We can always save our energy, never waste our time, and always help others; if that is what we choose to do. At any rate, we see the importance our beings contain. How we think, what we do, how we act and react, constantly creates our realities and each morning serves us the possibility to change a habit we don’t want, or break a pattern that is hurtful to our selves.

We understand that our work inside is our own, but that the outside will be affected by the inner work we all do. The manifestation of the changes will be created with others outside of yourself as we are never the chain ourselves, but each and everyone a link in the chain. And the training of balance starts, and the walk towards global consciousness begins.

”…while others gaze upon the heaven and ask for a miracle that never will come. We are all Miracles; unexplained.. It is born Inside of us, through us, by us and with us. If you knew this, you then wouldn’t throw away your portion of Miracles that is rooted in you. Christians say God created us in his own image. Then we are of no less worth than “him”..”

The power we possess is so hard to get a grasp of at times. Seeing this the first time was overwhelming for me. I do remember it, and seeing the sensations when others in my surroundings didn’t, wasn’t a feeling of being weird – it was a feeling of being home and at the right place in every moment.

“Weird” didn’t happen to me until others values and morals were placed on me. I saw patterns before I started the social entertainment of school and society. In that sense I was blessed with the ability to question at the age of 6. People that find this when being in school or later have a harder time getting passed the fact that all they know and have been taught need to be destroyed. Hypocrisy has weaved what they now. It needs to vanish. It needs to be taken apart and then be put back again with your own individual thought.

See, all the Pieces Fit. Most times in this puzzle’s own time. I revolted early, and threaded my own path. That was my choice. It isn’t easy to do either, because I head butt my way ahead, and I try everything until I know what works. I will try to put the circle through the square if I believe it works. With time every person realizes that the strife in itself, the struggle we feel makes it all much worse. The reason it makes it worse is because we have failed to realize the choices made. We have yet to come to terms with what we have created or chosen. We have yet to balance into ourselves the flexibility and adaptability that we need.

To do what we can do with what we have. To, in each moment, be able to be ourselves and work towards our goals – whatever the world present to us that day. To not lose ground. To not lose our trust in who we are and why we are here and what we want to do while being here. Instead learn to increase the trust so that we can become safe in ourselves. To not sacrifice our selves and what we strive for, if it happens to be obstacles on the way.

To find the understanding of following incidents is a good thing, and realize thereafter, the depth of the situations of which I am speaking:

Understanding that “Home” doesn’t mean “House”, but where you reside Inside.

To be rich doesn’t mean “Awake to the possessions we serve ourselves with”, but the “riches we hold inside”.

To be “successful” doesn’t mean “having the best job”, but instead “Doing the best job”.

In the surrounding world, signs of these Changes have been emerging for a long time now. The discussions on whether we can change the physical set energy masses (physical bodies), with liquid/floating energy (mental/emotional intents) are in their full speed. What comes out of that as proof is just to wait for. It will all be dependent upon perceptions and willpower to increase understandings so that we can grasp what is actually possible.

Is your life a world of possibilities or a world of limitations?

I’m one of the ones trying, pushing limits, advancing in my understanding. I bring science into the equation. Twisting and turning to see if it can fit in the hole.

Are you?

To be Clear in Mind doesn’t mean knowing the next step – it means knowing what we need to achieve and accomplish to continue striving towards our goals, WHATEVER the next step contains.

That we understand the consequences (results) of the actions (thought/action/non-action) that we choose to involve (or not involve) ourselves in.

One Awake and Aware step at the time..

You thought you only Dreamt?

Think again..

Skye Cebhfhionn

© 2001 - 2010 Skye Cebhfhionn